SUCCESS IS THE BEST REVENGE

I am really trying to repeat every day this affirmation: success is the best revenge.

somehow I linked the fact the things are going good for him-or at least that is what it seams- to the fact that things will go bad for me.
His happiness doesn't mean my not-happiness.

I just really need to focused on myself, spending time and energy thinking about him and her, won't bring anything good for me.
Still I thought about a punishment for him. maybe it doesn't make sense to put any type of effort in something that concerns him at all.

I want to have hope, that things will be good and this was just a necessary path to my growing.
someday it works, someday it won't.

Is karma working?

This has been a great week.

But I feel hopeless now.i feel like nothing really counts.bad people do bad things and there is no justice.

How can he be so stupid to come back to the place where we lived so Many things together? He only want to live these things with her? Why can he just have a dream on his own?why he need to leave my dream with her now?

This is not fair.i worked to make him become what he is now and she is enjoying it? 

I don't want that lie anymore,but I feel like the world is not going in the right direction. And nothing good is coming on my way just because he did that to me.it is random

I feel hopeless.

That is what I want

I am in Hawaii.

Today I felt kind of sad. Beside all the beauty of this place,I felt the lack of having someone to share it.

I thought about the shit ex.beside the fact that I don't think he deserves to see this place,sometimes I missed the person that I thought he was. I was wrong,he is a person capable of the worst lies and he doesn't care about anybody beside him.

So I felt sad with all these thoughts.

I was waiting for the sunshine and I saw this family.

He was really cute,surfer. She was cute too but normal. They have 2 kids.they seems so nice and happy. That is what I want. That is the type of relationship that I want. That is what I will get.

Which is nothing like my previous relationship,not only because he was a stupid piece of shit but also because I wasn't me. I wasn't sure about anything because I wasn't sure about him.and I was right.

That is what I want and that is what I will get because I deserve it.

2014 Goals

I think I already talked about the 2014 spirit, but I didn't really put down the list of goals.

1. Continuation of 2013 goal----> Be more grateful of what I have. Realize it, own it and be grateful.
I am always looking for something new, but also learn to appreciate the things and people in your life

2. Control my thoughts: don't make assumption, don't believe everything I think it is true. When I have negatives thoughts or memories, I need to think about what I have  and what I want and not about what I missed.

3.Go back to be optimistic about life and about me. I will get whatever I want, no matter how hard it is. and it will happen. don't be negative and think that it will be hard and I won't make it

4. Let go people and situations that hurt me. just let go, otherwise I will attract the same things all over

5. stop stalking people on social medias

6. Think like a million bucks, and you will get it. Think higher of myself

7. Be more smart and less afraid----> don't make stupid choices out of fear

Social Media Addiction

I think I have a problem with social media. yes, like everybody in 2014, ok...but mine is bigger.

Let's just say that you find out on Facebook that your boyfriend is still seeing that woman with whom he cheated on you las year. Let's say that beside the cheating, he lied about a bunch of other things in the last year of your life- maybe more. Can you imagine how hard it is to stop looking for information about her, about them??

Ok I passed the status of obsession of the first months, but still from time to time it is hard not to take a look on:
Facebook- their profile, we are not friends but still you can see some stuff
Instagram
Twitter
Linkedin
Trip Advisor ?? I know this is sick.

I realized that without knowing her I was able to re-constructe the life of this bitch, just searching on the different social network. I know around how old is she, where she studied, where she went on vacation (with my boyfriend by the way) and even in which restaurant they went to had lunch! Trip Advisor...sick.

Anyway I need to say thank you to facebook and to my sixth sense that was keep telling me to check her profile (he always denied that it was her), but honestly it is scary that all our life is right there, exposed.
I guess everything happened for a reason. I hope so...

Happiness: moments or state of mind?

I have been thinking a lot about happiness lately. mine of course, but also the one of the people I care.

It looks like we are been looking for this happiness in the wrong place. or at least in the wrong way. Are we all looking to have it all and we mistaken that for happiness? there was a brief moment where I thought I had it all, I had a good job, I had a boyfriend that I loved, the things were going good, I was living in the city where I always wanted...but something was missing still. I was lost, because I didn't have a goal, something to try to get. So I guess I wasn't really enjoying that status of apparent happiness that I should have felt.

I have been talking with friends too, and for all of us it seems so hard to be happy. Instead for our parents's generations seem so easy and automatic. do we try to reach something unreachable? do we think that have it all, meaning a good job, good relationship, good apartment means be happy, but in reality it doesn't?
is it like everybody said, that happiness need to come from the inside, that is way we never feel it even when we think we should?

or is happiness those few moments when we feel good with ourself and be in peace with ourself and with the world?

and indeed, is happiness a choice? partly? in full?

Be proactive or not expecting?

When I talk with people or read something about finding love, there are always 2 really different approcheas:

1. Live your life happily and fully, do the things that make you happy and when you LEAST EXPECTED, you will meet someone. This one never really worked for me, or either I was never really living my life without having any goal. I don't know, this surprise effect was never successful. Yes when I less expected something bad happened, but never something good.
But older people, spiritual and wise belief always tell you this thing, just stop looking and it will come.

2.Be proactive about what you are looking for. If you want a date, look for it. Start dating, go out, meet people, online dating.
Work for what you want, like everything else.

This is more my approch for everything, but it didn't seem really being successful in the love scene, so maybe it is not right. Maybe I should just stop looking and just live my life? but how am I expecting to meet somebody like that??
this is one of my eternal dilemma.
Also all the law of attractions theory, you need to put out there your intentions in order to attract and manifest what you desire...so should I just not thinking about it?
Maybe finding somebody don't need to became an obsession, but I still believe you need to do something, to desire it.